Thursday, October 2, 2014

Golden Storks Forever


Alkmaar, Tuesday September 30, 2014

The sun is playing hide and seek with the clouds today. I am looking up at a big old church, looming like a benevolent guardian over the numerous cafes lining the square in this typical Dutch town in North Holland. A snow-white pigeon is strutting back and forth between the tables, as if he just stepped out of a beauty parlor. Every quarter hour the church bells fill the air with their carillon, making sure we don't forget about the passing of time. This majestic building must feel humiliated; having harbored millions of souls in distress over the centuries, it is now reduced to the status of a common museum; its soul is gone, but its façade hasn't changed. On one of the high ledges, golden stork statues stare out onto the world, immobilized for eternity. They must envy the seagulls as they fly by with their shrill cawing: 'Come fly with us, come to the beautiful North Sea and fill your golden bellies with fish. Nothing will come of it, if you stay here, on this old church that has lost its glory.'

A lost balloon is rolling by my table, carried by the breeze. A black pigeon is watching it with detached curiosity, his head retracted but his beady eyes in constant motion, waiting for some crumbs.

The golden storks remind me of my mother Ata, who just turned 101. She stopped flying a long time ago. Slowly, she is letting go of her time on earth, but the carillon reminds her that it is not quite her time yet: 'Ata, wake up, you are still here. Your body still needs you. We still need you. You have all eternity to stand on that ledge. Wait a while longer.' But soon she will sleep through the quarter hour, then the half hour, then the hour. The chime will be ringing for the living only.

The lonely balloon floats up the brick wall, then falls again, floats higher, never reaching the storks. The golden birds look stoic, they have all eternity to watch the frenzied back and forth of this silly balloon and the endless stream of the living that are visiting their square. 'Go already' say the storks. 'Make room for others to live. Join us here, we have all the room you need.'

When Ata is ready, she will join them and from her high ledge, she will watch us and love us. And when I am ready, I too will make room and join them, up on the ledge of that beautiful old church, trapped inside my gold leaf covering. We all will… eventually. leave comment here

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

What a beautiful comment on a wonderful, creative lady whose life span and personal experience have encompassed the most tumultuous of events - yet whose photographic art so well recorded the gentle moments of love, family, childhood. Like the golden storks; a calm narrative above the squawk and tumult of life.
Best wishes
Barbara Hall

Madeleine said...

Thanks Barbara, for your comment. One of these days, who knows we will see each other. Hopefully before we both stand on that ledge!!

Scott said...

A very nice tribute to your mother---very evocative.

Elsje said...

Heel veel sterkte.

Tom Bridges said...

Hi
I'm sorry I still don't know how to jump through the hoops of replying directly to your excellent Blog. But please be patient with me.

I loved Madeleine's latest Blog entry. It deals with the difficult but necessary actions and emotions of an elderly spouse, parent or even a close friend.

It is absolutely brilliant writing

Anonymous said...

Today we had to say goodbye to another old friend, Leo Schatz who left us in his 96 year.

Your beautyful words are making it softer to let them go.

Dominga Blazer

Sharon Darrow said...

Lovely, thoughtful, and a sweet way to bring balance to my thoughts and my day.

Thank you, and bless your family.

Terry said...

Thank you for sharing such a special time and a passing of time with us.
You have spoken beautiful thoughts and your heart must be heavy. Listen for the chimes, they will be ringing for you and your loved ones, and maybe for us all. . ..
(I have opened this message more than ten days late.) I am glad you, Madeleine wrote this, and with you, Tom for keeping me on your list.

Madeleine said...

Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments.

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